dudes, i haven't been on here for the past 3 1/2 months. god i feel so out of it.

Obvs i've kept up to date with slash and shiatzu but not with my friends page or with my own. JFC.

So here i am, sophomore year. ugh. high school is nuts.....but a lot of fun

WHAT ESLE HAS BEEN GOING ON?!?

has everyone forgotten about me? i would hope not. So i've decided that i'll try to post every week or so. there just doesn't seem to be enough hours in a day for me to do everything.

i do up date my twitter a lot so if you ever wanna reach me your best bet is here

also, whats up with bden and spence? heard they went to brazil and hawaii and chile. good for them. :D

<3 Spryte.

Hey guys!
To start off, the show was awesome !
To start off we had Chester French (or soemthing like that) uh, hate to say this but they just weren't...good? yeah, nobody stood and it  was a lost cause. i'm sorry.
Then came my BOYS! my face = :DDDDDDDDDDDD! sang along with all the songs. had an awesome time. amazing.
couldn't take pictures because i couldn't smuggle my camera inside :( sorry to quixoticfangirl whom i had promised photos. but i'm sure a lot of people were up close and did take pics.
Oh brendon, brendon brendon brendon. you were amazing and it's almost like you listened to me to not grope Ian. can you say awkward? yeah, i can.
THe songs were great the show was great the atmosphere was great. it was..well, great!
cue in intermission in which i discovred i was this__close to losing my voice. i guess i forgot because when FOB started i screamed and fuck, there goes my throat. bleeding and all. lol
Oh boys, you played a great show too. Awesome little conversations they had in which pete mistook the seagull in What A Catch, Donnie for a pigeon. oh god, *shakes head* and patrick for being a sweetheart "it' was a seagull, pete" aww. :'D
Unfortunately we could only listen to 2 songs by blink-182 ::=(:: we had to leave. got a panic bag and a fob bag and wristbands.
anyways, i recuparated my voice today. still a little shaky, but not too shabby. lol

 
:D From Ian's Twitter

It kind of broke my heart a little when i didn't see ryan or jon there, but it's been accepted. it's just now i have 2 bands to look out for . double the merch and double the trouble.

<3 Spryte

OMG HI GUYS!

you have no idea what happened! I got tickets to see Panic! at Nikon Theater in Jones Beach this sunday! :DDDDDDDD

So I'll start from the begginning!
During the school year i became aquainted (more like got glued to) with this girl named Sarah. Now, she wasn't into Panic! at all, thought they were weird but i convinced her to give them a listen and then tell me what she thought.
Turns out she loved them. (Yay! points for Me!) and she also had an awesome love for Ryden which was even more awesome.
Now, i haven't talked to her since school ended in late June. She called me a couple hours ago annoucing that her dad's friend got them tickets to see a blink-182 show this Sunday.

I LITERALLY ALMOST JIZZED PISSED MY PANTS!

Of course i answered yes! (before she even asked if i wanted to go) and now we're talking a set time to go to the show.
Right now she's in Baltimore but she'll be back for the show and i'm so fucking Happy. :DDDDDD
the glee is pouring out of my fucking pores, bitches!

I'M GOING TO GET TO SEE MY BOYS!

Today I also saw, What A Catch, Donnie. it was great. got to see some bden and spencer. though awful job with the green screen. (pete was right)


So anything else i'm missingout on?
Oh! I also added myself to the roll call over at patd so check me out there!

<3 Spryte

P.S. What's going on with TYV?

Hello again. i always seem to make posts at around this hour. :)

Anyways, i just listened to small cuts by the brobecks and i gotta say, they're pretty good. For the longest time i actually thought that was his last name. Dallon Brobeck but then yeah, it's Weekes. (or so it says on twitter)

IAN CRAWFORD good to see you again. I was a little surprised though, because he moved away from the cab because he didn't want to do that pop stuff anymore and deleon said something about how ian should have been born in the 60's (which makes me think TYV) but each to their own. i'm just glad he's back :)

ALSO, BEFORE I FORGET. I forget who it was that wrote the most fabulous story about ryan going to the library and finding little recommendations for a book from brendon but he didn't know it was him and it was all romantic and cute and awwhhh. Anyways, one fo the books was The House At Pooh Corner so i decided to give it a read too. and it's FUCKING FANTASTIC, YA'LL! :D i'm in love with it.

Also, if you guys could do me a huge favor and bug me over at twitter. you guys need to remind me to do my summer project and i'm procrastinating (again!) and i compulsively check twitter (i have a problem, i'll admit it) so that'd be great. thank you. ;)

and i think that is all. except for the part where Panic and the boys played minigolf and they're just too adorable.

okay. now it's over, fer sure ya'll, twas a dream!

<3 Spryte

P.S. (ohmygorsh, shut up!) you guys have to check out Jake & Amir . funniest people there, if you're familiar with College Humor you'll love them. :)

Hey guys!

so i've been good the past few days. except for when i got my internet cut off D: but besides that everything's been dandy.
 so in case you haven't been there (and why haven't you!) go to failross because it is the best place ever!

also , also also have any of you added me on my twitter lately? because for some reason i'm getting all these new people requests. they might just be spam, but i had to make sure. I'm PUMPKINMUFFINS on twitter, just to give you a heads up. :)

that is it, unless i have forgotten anything? have i? well maybe the fact that TYV havne't rly done anything since the release of Change. Here's to the them doing more! 

<3 Spryte

Hello Lovelies! :)

I have a few things to talk about.

1) New Perspective - okay, so maybe the bridge does not please me too much but that little melody in the background that sounds like my phone's going off or some sort of video game totally reeled me in. :) I absofuckinglutely love the ooooo's in the background and the 90's feel to it. Good Job P!ATD. Is it in my iPod? why, yes it is. why would you even ask such a silly question, my dear.

2) Change - I adore it. Ryan's voice seems to fit this much better than the pretty odd singing stuff he did. I love the 60's british invasion feel to it. I will continue to follow you guys. wherever you go (pffft, as if i even needed to say that.)

3) young_veins great place! everyone's full of love and rainbows and oh so welcoming. <3 it. go there. NOW!

4) patd ohmygorge. i see people taking out the claws here. It's the complete opposite of young_veins but i see why that could be. everyone's still licking their wounds. but srsly, the hate that is going on in that community is repulsive. but still, it's a bit understandble. just don't cross lines or offend people. geezus.

5) Tweets - so the #tweetintwain makes sense now and their tweets are still adorable (Brendon!)

Last, but not least. does anyone have a rip of changes? because mine skips about every 5 seconds. :) thanks.

<3 Spryte.

tagged by rinada 

Things you are addicted to:
1) panic! at the disco
2) ryden (as if my username didn't say enough)
3) pepsi
4) twitter
5) Rachel (my computer)

Things that will always cheer you up:
1) Crazy!keltie blogs
2) music
3) brendon!ryan!jon!spencer! tweets
4) Hercules (1997 Disney Film)
5) smiling

Things you want to do before you die:
1) travel anywhere i want to go
2) try weed.
3) officially come out of my religion!closet
4) adopt a couple of kids.
5) be a better enviromentalist

What you would spend the money on if you won the lottery:
1) Band Tees
2) concert tickets
3) move to california
4) buy myself a supah cool apple laptop, britchezzzz
5) buy my mom her dream house. (with an orange couch of course)

Superpowers you wish you had:
1) invisibility
2) transport myself to wherever i goddamn felt like
3) what's that thing called? when you can levitate stuff? telekinisis?
4) shape shifter
5) to fly

If you could change stuff about yourself, what would you change:

nothing. i love myself just the way i am and i take pride in that.

i tag omgthatsfun , pinkkchocolate , uriegasmz , infatuatedxmind , polaroidsof182 , pakhit0125 , my_0wn_madness , trippypeas 

please. you don't have to do this. but the rules said to tag so there ya have it. :)

<3 Spryte

Leave me a comment with "BEETLEJUICE BEETLEJUICE BEETLEJUICE" in the subject line.
I'll respond by asking you five questions so I can get to know you better.
Update your journal with the answers to the questions.
Include this explanation in the post and offer to ask other people questions.

From casualyobsessed 

J'aime la cuisine. C'est tres bon!
Aussi, j'aime les villes. ils sont tres beau.

god i hope that was right. my french is not great, but it's understandable (i think)

<3 Spryte

Hello there lovelies :)
i'm in a great mood today (though this morning was meh)
Tomorrow me and omgthatsfun are going to see the Cloisters in NYC. (no, they're not  a rare breed of clams and oysters, though that's what i thought they were) I'm super excited, i haven't gone to the city in FOREVER.
Then Wednesday we're gonna go see Bruno which i'm also excited about and i haven't seen my friend Lauren in ages, so i wanna see her again. i miss her. =/
Saturday we're gonna go watch harry potter, which is meh, but i'm still excited. I just don't get into the whole harry potter fandom but the movies are cool but i cannot get through those books. i hardly got through the 1st and 2nd one.
I bought a new bed set with the money i got from my birthday. it's blue and green and it's uber cute. :) i'm happy.
also, i promised pics of my short hair (sob) so here's one:
 you can't see it very well but whatever. all you need to know is that it's barely touching my shoulders. but at least now i use half as much shampoo and conditioner plus also less water when i shower, so i'm saving the planet here. :) AND I DON'T KNOW WHO THE FUCK KEEPS PUTTING GARBAGE IN THE RECYCLING BAG! >_< i'm upset.
Let's see, what else is there to talk about?
well, disco related. Everyone seems to be ryan&jon happy now. that's good, all this tiff with them was getting a little ridiculous, imo.

well, i think that's all.
<3 Spryte

Happy Birthday To Me. Even if i'm the only singing off-key.
So I have to make this rly quick seeing as i'm still in the middle of preparing for the party.

To all of  you that have dropped a note about my birthday, thank you. You make it all that better.

You guys can always reach me at my twitter. and my aim ryden4ever or even my facebook : Antonella Ynca
Don't be shy, i don't bite.

also happy birthday quixoticfangirl  seeing as it's your birthday also! :)
also, i'm excited! my family's gonna come and it's gonna be a blast. again, thanks everyone! :D

<3 Spryte
EDIT: forgot to mention how short my h air is now. pics later. still in the midst of things.

Hey there.
I have a lot of things to talk about, but to start it all i want to say How are you guys feeling? if any of you need to vent or just want to talk i'm always here. i'm probably on AIM too, so hit me up at ryden4ever (god, my usernames are making me sad).
So, let's get started. Shall we?

1) I've talked to a very good friend about all of this. See has shown me the positive side and has let me vent even though maybe it wasn't stuff she agreed with. I <3 that about her. She thinks she may have come off as being mean in some of her opinions, but that's quite allright, i value her opinions and am always up to hearing them. I had been very angry with the universe, and i'm still a bit angry. My random outbursts have quieted today, though i almost teared when i walked down the street. Yesterday night i had a complete breakdown but i calmed down and that outburst left. I'm still dealing with this but i look forward to the time when i can be a little more happy with the universe. I know that thing's are gonna be just fine. Never the same, but still good. i have hope and you should too.

2) This team shit has gotten under my skin. I love all my boys, i truly do. I admire them as musicians and as people. Doesn't matter what they do i'll still look up to them, they were afterall my first heartbreak, but we'll talk about that in a few sentences (and also about ryan's powdery habit as my friend simply_diva put it.) But anyways, back on track. I foudn this picture on my_0wn_madness 's lj.
banner by fuzzyniffler and quote by halfmoon_dark . kudos to them.
Isn't it the best thing ever? yes. i know.

3) Now, i'll be honest with you. I've never had a boyfriend. Have i looked up to scrumptious males? yes, and i'm not ashamed one of those used to be Jesse McCartney. Panic At The Disco was my world. There were times where anything you said i could relate it to them just like that *snaps fingers* I don't like to admit it, but i fell in love with those boys. not a i'm-so-deeply-in-love-lets-have-kids! kinda love because i was realistic, but i fell in love with them, nonetheless. This break up was probably my first heartbreak. I could feel my heart swell up and burst into tiny little jagged pieces. I felt the sting behind my eyes. I felt my body grow cold and it felt like nothing before. As i've said in a previous post, i invested my feelings way too much into this band, but if i had to do it again, i would. in a motherfucking heartbeat.

4) As far as ryan's powdery habit, i'm not bothered by it. I mean, sure, you could have been a little more descreet, jesus christ there's 11 year old girls looking at these pictures! I will agree with Keltie on the fact that the world is a beautiful and magical place and there's no need for such things but i also have my motto of "try everything at least once, except suicide cause then you're screwed". I feel like one day if someone hands me a joint saying "you want a hit?" i'll say "sure, but don't laugh at me. i've never done this before" . I will never in my life mess with cocaine or crack or heroine. Would i try weed? sure, why not? I'll give it a go, but i will not go out of my way looking for it.

5) Is there anythign else i need to talk about? Well, i guess i'll talk about those tweets. Ryan & Jon's tweets are boring me but i will never not click on their twitpics. i have to keep a loookout for possible future members, ya know? like this alex greenwald. Met him before on the HCT tour. He was so fucking drunk of his ass. As far as Bden and Spin's tweets, i'm satisfied. The quotes have been completely fine with me. the covers? wonderful. I still tear up a bit when i hear 3 little birds, because i can see that bden's trying, i see that. I thank my stars everyday because he tries and he wants US to feel better when we don't even fucking know how he's feeling! he's such a caring and beautiful person.

6) on a last note, because this is getting fucking long and i don't wanna get yelled at for not making it a cut. when can we ask for a reunion tour? or collaborations? is it too early? is there a rule that say so and so many years have to pass? lol.

and with that i leave you.

<3 Spryte.

I don't know what to say. I

I saw the weird twitters that zack and pete were sending and i got suspicious. What was going on??
I check patd and wow. so ryan and jon are leaving? surprise me, why don't ya?
I'm not gonna lie. When i found out I cried and I'm still tearing and having random outburst of anger and sadness, but i feel numb at the same time. right now about anything will set me off.
I feel angry and betrayed and overall sad and more anger. I'm sure i'll get over it. but i just wonder how long it will take.
I'm not mad at any specific panic member but it angers me how they, as a group of people, are over. Sure, spencer and bden are continuing and its all just "creative differences" but i just think this breakup is messier than they're letting on.

i hope all goes well for both Panic and Ryan&Jon. I still like them as separate people but the bond and music and just overall greatness they had together will be dearly missed by me.

We will all be okay. THe world isn't ending. it's not, i can assure you, but there will be some changes and whether you like them or not i do not know. What i do know is that they are wonderful people (though i've never met them) and they deserve to be happy, just like we deserve to be happy.

<3 Spryte

P.S. i won't say this was a shit of a birthday present (its this saturday) but it wasn't great news that i had in mind either. I WILL GET BY.

So hey. :)

Last night i had the weirdest dream. We were at my high school for the fireworks, though it was still day and there was some sort of carnival going on. Then Finn brings out these GINORMOUS chicken and hens and i was pisssing my pants. I think i've mentioned it before but i'm deadly afraid of birds. (It all goes back to a pelican accident a couple years back) Anyways, here I am in the middle of this big motherfucking field and those 7ft hens are just pecking about (mostly in my direction) and out of nowhere, well HEY! there's this 2 story tower with fucking stairs on the outside. so i try to climb the stairs but they go away as soon as i'm about to touch them. Stupid motherfuckers.
BUT! there is this ledge that i hold on to. (with those motherfucking hens pecking at my feet) and about 3 ft above the ledge there's this window (though it has no glass, more like a window shaped hole) and there's this guy talking to me about random shit. And we have conversation and he tells me how i'm so much more talkative then the last girl that came by and we talk like we're old friends.
trippy as fuck. and i also remember Jasmine being there for some reason. weird, i know.

Besides that, i've just heard the good life cover by Bden and also downloaded DJ Boss covered by bden yesterday. both great covers and bden's still cute as ever. besides that, not much has been happening besides talk about hte new album and new single and people blaisecally jizzing their pants for the new album. (don't worry, i kinds jizzed my pants when i heard they were actually in a motherfucking studio) excited would be an understatement.

<3 Spryte

Hey guys. so i just stole this quick little meme from quixoticfangirl so i hope you enjoy it! :)

1. Have your music library ready.
2. Choose one (1) song from your music library whose title starts with the first letter (or number) of your screen name.
3. Repeat this process with each successive letter (or number) in your screen name until you run out of letters (or numbers).
4. Post up your results.
5. BONUS POINTS: Upload your mix (whether it's individual songs or a .zip of all the songs) and include the mix in your post.

R: Round Here - Patd (Counting Crows Cover)
Y: You Are THe Moon - The Hush Sound
D: Dirty Business - The Dresden Dolls
E: Even If It Kills Me - Motion City Soundtrack
N: Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks - Panic At The Disco
F: Franklin - Paramore
A: Anthem - Zebrahead
N: Neighbors - The Academy Is...

so, hey. how are you liking my new layout. it's so pretty. :)

today my mom decided to be a bitch about cleaning and you know with detail I hated it.
It's kind of weird how I finished school last thursday but here I am waking up at 8am to drop off my brother at school. I mean, it doesn't compare with the 6:20am i had to wake up before but still. it's morning and its summer, I'd rather take it easy.

As Far as school goes, I'm kinda hoping my report card gets lost in the mail. Mother is not going to be happy. yuk. I sort of can't wait til back to school shopping because, i don't know whether you agree or not, but it's a motherfucking blast. pencils, pens, 60 crayon case that you won't really need but still want. AHHH. bliss.

Birthday is still coming up and I'm not looking forward to it. 15? i feel soooo old. BBQ @ my house if anyone wants in. July 11, if you know where I live.
I'm not expecting much but quite some gifts, or rather money. Money I could spend on whatever the fuck i wanted to. that'd be nice. but then again, presents that are not money seem to have more sentimental value. ugh. whatever.

Also, Jake & Amir are the cutest little things. ;) go check them out at www.collegehumor.com adorable.

And with that I'll wrap up this entry.

Goodnight my lovelies.
<3 Spryte

Hi. So I haven't posted in ages (and i do realize i say this 98% of the time i post) and it feels like i should.
I've become a spy and a good one at that.
Last day of school was today, so holla at yo' home girl. :) i'm excited.
My birthday's coming up and at the moment it just feels like i'm getting older and i'm reluctant about letting go of my childhood. It wasn't a great one, but hey! i'm only turning 15, still got 3 years until i have "responsibilites" and bils to pay. bullshit.
Also, I got a tumblr. (did i mention this before?) go check me out at here!
I've been having some good times.
omgthatsfun 's unbday party was last saturday and it was off the hizzy. We got naked and ran around. Almost like Girls Gone Wild but without the beer and boys. Maybe I'll post a pic or two about it later on.
My great-grandma turned 80 and the party was meh. Idk, at least I got chocolate, so all was good.

I farewell thee for tonight.
<3 Spryte

I haven't posted in ages. So hi :) Reason for this post? Yeah, this weird ass dream with panic-look alikes and mean!Dan Young I can't remember much anymore, but I remember we were by this fed Ex and I was sitting at a table with my ma. She pointed over to 2 hunched figures drawing on another table. Turns out it was "panic" right. So I get a autograph and a pic. (It was Jon and Ryan) And then look back up at them and BAM it was not them. Turns out Dan Young was being a meanie and tried to trick me (lets not talk about how he did) But he tricked me cause he wanted to talk to mw (Why? Idk) Douchebag. There was more to it, I remember there being a trai and omgthatsfunwas there.

I don't know how i feel about this.
the only time my dad tells me he's proud of me is when he comes home drunk and nobody's home but us.
he says he's proud of me, and that I'm his favorite daughter (I'm his only daughter. He obviously has too much alcohol in his system)
He says he wants me to better myself and for me not to have to go through what he went through when he was a kid growing up in Mexico.
and we're so alike in the fact we hate showing emotion and we're so so so so wrong with words.
we never know what to say at the moment, and maybe later we come up with something.
but you know, it's okay.
i'd prefer he wasn't completely drunk and you know, sober. but it's okay. I don't mind.
he's my dad, and he loves me. and i'm his daughter, and i love him. and that's allright.